When it comes to talking about my experience with a penis pump, I’m often filled with embarrassment and shame. You see, a few months ago, I decided to buy a penis pump in an attempt to increase the size of my penis. I’m sure you can imagine how embarrassed and ashamed I felt at the thought of owning a penis pump. But here I am, a few months later, owning one, and still struggling to come to terms with what I’ve done.
To be honest, I’m still not sure why I purchased the penis pump in the first place. I suppose I was hoping that it would give me the confidence boost I needed. I thought that if I could get my penis to the size I wanted, I wouldn’t feel so self-conscious and inadequate anymore. Now that I look back on it, it’s almost comical how naive I was to think that a penis pump could enhance my self-worth.
It’s funny, the things we do to try to make ourselves feel better. That’s why I’m so ashamed of my decision to purchase a penis pump. Even now, I often feel like I made a huge mistake. I mean, who really wants to pump themselves up that way? It just seems so desperate and ridiculous.
But at the same time, I can’t deny that I still have a weird fascination with the penis pump. It’s like this strange object that I’m terrified of yet strangely drawn to. I can almost imagine the strange sensation of the vacuum, pumping up my penis to a size it’s never been before. It’s a sensation that I both crave and dread.
The truth is that I’m still not sure what I’m supposed to do with the penis pump. On one hand, I want to forget about it and pretend it never happened. On the other hand, I can’t help but feel curious about what it could do for me if I actually used it. It’s like a part of me is daring me to take the plunge and actually try it out. But I just can’t seem to push myself to do it.
That’s why I’m so ashamed of owning a penis pump in the first place. All the guilt and doubt that kind of action can bring is just too much for me to handle. And yet, here I am, still stuck with a penis pump that I’m not even sure I want or vibrators need. I guess the only thing to do now is wait and see what will happen.
In addition to feeling shame and embarrassment about owning a penis pump, I also feel ashamed of myself for not having the guts to actually use it. This is something I never thought I’d admit to anyone, let alone to myself. But it’s true. I’m scared of what might happen if I actually do use the pump, and I’m ashamed that I can’t bring myself to take the plunge.
I’m ashamed of my own fear and cowardice. I know I should be strong enough to face the consequences, whatever they may be, but I just can’t seem to bring myself to take the risk. I hate the way I feel so vulnerable and scared, but I also can’t escape the curiosity that I feel about using the pump. It’s like I’m caught between two conflicting emotions, and I’m not sure which one will win.
At times, I almost feel like I should destroy the penis pump and be done with it. But I can’t bring myself to take that kind of action either. I guess I’m just too scared to make a decision one way or the other.
I guess I’m just going to have to live with the shame and embarrassment of owning a penis pump. I know it’s not the most productive way to deal with it, but it’s the only thing I can really do. It’s like a weird bone in my body that won’t go away. I just have to accept it and move on with my life.
I’ve tried to talk it out with friends and family, but no one seems to understand what I’m going through. They try to give me advice, vibrators but it’s impossible to explain the weird mix of feelings and emotions that come up when I think about owning a penis pump. I’ve even tried to talk to therapists and counselors, but it’s obvious that they don’t really get what I’m talking about either.
That’s why I try to just keep the whole thing to myself. I find solace in isolation, because at least then I’m the only one who knows what’s going on in my head. I know it’s not the healthiest thing to do, but sometimes I just need a break from all the judgement and worry that comes from talking to someone about owning a penis pump.
